just because..

no one updates their blog, so what the heck. might as well. haha, but i really actually don't have anything insightful to say.. hmm. wow, my life is truly boring. wait! i'll just talk about my first week at andover high? haha. it was pretty nice and i think people are pretty chill. i really like my performance arts class (AHAHAHAHAHAHAH). like even though its kinda.. interesting.. my teacher is like really laid back and stuff and i dont actually have to perform. i get to sit in the back and do the tech stuff (hahahaa, i know. me. with tech stuff. its gonna be interesting...) but yeah. i dont think there are any other things that stood out at andover.. wait! hahaha, so in gym we're gonna be doing a relaxation unit which is nice because my teacher is basically giving us permission to SLEEP IN CLASS. i really need sleep. i like don't get enough. but yeah, thats an update on my life?

DUDE, im so jealous of westford and chelmsford and all those other towns. i really just want to stay home, drink hot chocolate, and youtube my life away.

kay, i love you all! if you're not satisfied with this little update i guesssss you can call me :p

so basically..

there's only 1 more day left :) and when i get to BOSTON i wanna:
- hang out in boston :)
- watch a movie (twilight, madagascar 2... hehe)
- go BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING! (preferably early) :)
- eat some turkey :)
- go drink coffee and talk about lifee ;)
- make dance videos with AGG, hahahahahaa
- paint my new room :)
- get adjusted to the time difference :)

October 29, 2008

editt// adding to my list:
- gas money so i can drive down to averyy :)

today is the day of my first job interview. today is the day i got my first job. today was a great day :) but yeah, i guess it's pretty exciting because with this, comes responsibility.. well, kind of hha. this post is so pointless but i just wanted to enlighten my stalkers about my daily activities, hahaha. but anyways, i'll make a list of things i'm saving up for :)

- airfare for bostonnnnnn :)
- taylor or martin or breedlove guitara (i am so indecisive)
- summer program at oxford in england :)
- backpacking in europe with liz
- vietnam with mi cousine diana
- various other items that are not as important :)

well, basically that's my list of like.. long term stuff. but there are always short term items and stuff that aren't toooooo important like a pea coat :) but yeah. i hope you alllll have a beautiful night!

done by the hands of a broken artist

you painted black where my naked heart is
i finally know what wrong is
now i finally know that you bleed for nothing
carved like a stone from your hands still shaking
on display through a soul still breaking
aren't you proud you're the one who made me?
aren't you proud? aren't you proud?

LOL, so when i first heard this i thought it was like an anti-Christ song but it ISN'T so it's all good. like basically it's about how you shouldn't let someone change you or make you into someone you aren't, which i think people can really relate to today. there are so many things and people in the world trying to change you and mold you and make you into what society deems as perfect or good. but you know, the best thing is to just be yourself and not change for anyone, whether it be for acceptance or otherwise. it's just a daily reminder that i'm not perfect and that i'll always be loved by the people who really love and care for me :)

but yeah, i think this song was reallyyyyy beautifully written and i just wanted to share it with you guys :) it's called masterpiece by meg and dia, so now that you know go listen to it! here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfznCeBFDgg. i wish i could write music like that.

anniversary :)

i don't know why, but i all of a sudden had a burst or nostalgia. so i went back to like my oldest posts and started reading all of them and i realized that YESTERDAY was my one year anniversary on this thing :) wow, right? so much had changed since then and i realize that i was super whiney/annoying on this thing. and i used to write every single day, which now that i think of it is super obnoxious :p and i saw that i wrote like really angsty posts sometimes which was also kinda funny.

so this is kind of like those old posts, i guess. i'm basically writing about nothing except for what comes to mind. hmm, it was fun though so i want YOU guys to revisit your posts from like.. 2007 (!) and see what you wrote :) it's also really nice to see how big my blogspot family has grown :) it started off with just lonely little me on here and then BOOM! IT WAS LIKE AN EXPLOSION!

oh well here's something fun: i'm taking the PSATs tomorrow and now i'm scared for SATs and i'm scared i won't get into college. I DIDN'T REALIZE THERE WERE SO MANY BIG WORDS!!!