goodbye...

goodbye blogspot.... hello tumblr

i like to document important moments in my life

haha, taking screenshots is a new found addiction :) but how else am i supposed to document my life on youtube? so basically, i got an honor on youtube! (and a couple for my showstopper video) like i mean seriously, i never thought this day would happen. um, and it's pretty exciting stuff hahaha. it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. yes, i know i'm a dork but it's okay. i'm alright with that :)

i'm happy!

umm, i basically took a screenshot of one of the bestest days of my lifee :) soo, ajrafael kinda commented on my video. and then he kinda favorited it. and then he kinda ADDED IT TO HIS PAGE! LIKE WHAT THE HECKK?! hahahaha, go to http://youtube.com/ilajil and scroll down :)

new years eve

is right now! haha, i have no idea what i'm doing up so late. well it's actually because i have a new found love for korean dramas. yes, i know they are completely unrealistic and twisted but they tug at my heartstrings and make me cry and either fall in love with or passionately hate the characters. anyways, enough ranting about korean dramas =] but oh mann, reflection on this past year :)

january- worked at my ex-step-grandma's restaurant on new years! (ask me about what that even means later :p), my birthday was on friday and people baked me a cake but i wasn't there to eat it, lol i can't remember this far back

february- tc 2008 which i'm really glad i went to

march-

april-

may- made my youtube account (hahaha)

june- got my beautiful mac :)

july- boston project which was basically a highlight of my summer :), left boston for california, LYF beach trip, beach with the CHOS, invasion of phillip and karen's, street performing in the boston commons

august- posted first video to youtube :), started SCHOOL, hung out with liz IN cali, met cool new people who i miss right now :(

september- missed people :(

october- got my permit, crashed into a curb, mother's birthday, PSATS (HAHAHAHHAHA), lee-less LYF retreat :p

november- first job interview, first job, first paycheck, first time quitting a job, father's birthday, thanksgiving :), moved BACK to boston, watched TWILIGHT with cool people

december- christmas :), started school at ANDOVER HIGH, had the first snowday of the school year, met cool new people at school, met new people in general

omgoodness, so i'm having like a brain fart right now and i can't remember anything from the past year! but yeah, it's been a really great/awesome one with it's twists and turns. this past year has really been like an emotional roller coaster ride though which made it not so fun. actually, this was a bad-ish year in general. everything about it. well, not everythingggg but a lot of it was just unnecessary and it made me sad :( anyways, to end on a HAPPY NOTE, i'm really excited for this new year. i know God has lots of good things in store for us and it's just a fresh start again. let's make 2009 a great year.

suckiest christmas of my life

ever.

just kidding, i love my sister.

eh just kidding again. it wasn't thattt bad.

somebody should lock me in a room

so i don't spend all my money.

i need people to keep reminding me about a certain beautiful taylor. so then i don't go wild and be broke and not be able to get my taylor. so i've made a "resolution" not to spend money (except family Christmas gifts and gifts in general) until i get my beautiful baby. kay, so now since it's kind of written in stone (?) i better not spend anything. if i do, i'll give jonchan a dollar.

just because..

no one updates their blog, so what the heck. might as well. haha, but i really actually don't have anything insightful to say.. hmm. wow, my life is truly boring. wait! i'll just talk about my first week at andover high? haha. it was pretty nice and i think people are pretty chill. i really like my performance arts class (AHAHAHAHAHAHAH). like even though its kinda.. interesting.. my teacher is like really laid back and stuff and i dont actually have to perform. i get to sit in the back and do the tech stuff (hahahaa, i know. me. with tech stuff. its gonna be interesting...) but yeah. i dont think there are any other things that stood out at andover.. wait! hahaha, so in gym we're gonna be doing a relaxation unit which is nice because my teacher is basically giving us permission to SLEEP IN CLASS. i really need sleep. i like don't get enough. but yeah, thats an update on my life?

DUDE, im so jealous of westford and chelmsford and all those other towns. i really just want to stay home, drink hot chocolate, and youtube my life away.

kay, i love you all! if you're not satisfied with this little update i guesssss you can call me :p

so basically..

there's only 1 more day left :) and when i get to BOSTON i wanna:
- hang out in boston :)
- watch a movie (twilight, madagascar 2... hehe)
- go BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING! (preferably early) :)
- eat some turkey :)
- go drink coffee and talk about lifee ;)
- make dance videos with AGG, hahahahahaa
- paint my new room :)
- get adjusted to the time difference :)

October 29, 2008

editt// adding to my list:
- gas money so i can drive down to averyy :)

today is the day of my first job interview. today is the day i got my first job. today was a great day :) but yeah, i guess it's pretty exciting because with this, comes responsibility.. well, kind of hha. this post is so pointless but i just wanted to enlighten my stalkers about my daily activities, hahaha. but anyways, i'll make a list of things i'm saving up for :)

- airfare for bostonnnnnn :)
- taylor or martin or breedlove guitara (i am so indecisive)
- summer program at oxford in england :)
- backpacking in europe with liz
- vietnam with mi cousine diana
- various other items that are not as important :)

well, basically that's my list of like.. long term stuff. but there are always short term items and stuff that aren't toooooo important like a pea coat :) but yeah. i hope you alllll have a beautiful night!

done by the hands of a broken artist

you painted black where my naked heart is
i finally know what wrong is
now i finally know that you bleed for nothing
carved like a stone from your hands still shaking
on display through a soul still breaking
aren't you proud you're the one who made me?
aren't you proud? aren't you proud?

LOL, so when i first heard this i thought it was like an anti-Christ song but it ISN'T so it's all good. like basically it's about how you shouldn't let someone change you or make you into someone you aren't, which i think people can really relate to today. there are so many things and people in the world trying to change you and mold you and make you into what society deems as perfect or good. but you know, the best thing is to just be yourself and not change for anyone, whether it be for acceptance or otherwise. it's just a daily reminder that i'm not perfect and that i'll always be loved by the people who really love and care for me :)

but yeah, i think this song was reallyyyyy beautifully written and i just wanted to share it with you guys :) it's called masterpiece by meg and dia, so now that you know go listen to it! here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfznCeBFDgg. i wish i could write music like that.

anniversary :)

i don't know why, but i all of a sudden had a burst or nostalgia. so i went back to like my oldest posts and started reading all of them and i realized that YESTERDAY was my one year anniversary on this thing :) wow, right? so much had changed since then and i realize that i was super whiney/annoying on this thing. and i used to write every single day, which now that i think of it is super obnoxious :p and i saw that i wrote like really angsty posts sometimes which was also kinda funny.

so this is kind of like those old posts, i guess. i'm basically writing about nothing except for what comes to mind. hmm, it was fun though so i want YOU guys to revisit your posts from like.. 2007 (!) and see what you wrote :) it's also really nice to see how big my blogspot family has grown :) it started off with just lonely little me on here and then BOOM! IT WAS LIKE AN EXPLOSION!

oh well here's something fun: i'm taking the PSATs tomorrow and now i'm scared for SATs and i'm scared i won't get into college. I DIDN'T REALIZE THERE WERE SO MANY BIG WORDS!!!

i really don't know what to write about

this weekend was fun.. nott. but i dunno, after reading (or hearing) about all your lyf retreat experiences i felt like i was there too. am i making sense?

i could tell that it was just so beautiful. physicially. emotionally. spiritually. everything about it was beautiful. everyone was so open and it feels like there was freedom in the air. broken hearts were healed and mended, yet there are still hearts out there that weren't. there are people that were spiritually thirsty and they got their water, yet there are others who still struggle. i really have no idea what i'm saying but bear with me. i'm writing what's in my head? but yeah. as always, there are still people out there who are hungry for more and that weren't really affected byretreat. i'm so happy for all of you who had a wonderful experience and were really able to break down the walls that kept you from Jesus. and i'm praying for those of you who weren't really able to feel anything. who are still hurting and kinda broken and weak. but if that is what's going on, i really encourage you to talk to someone about it. your family at LYF :)

this post is so blah. i feel like i'm like a 50 year old teaching a lesson on life (no pun intended) but i can't really say what i'm actually thinking. oh wells. it's inspiring a songggg :)

broken i come to you for your arms are open wide

starting over at a new church is different. kinda weird. kinda interesting. kinda intimidating almost? now i know how newcomers feel and i kinda wish i was more welcoming and friendly and open. people like that and people feel accepted and it makes people want to go back. who wouldn't want to find a place like that?

i'm feeling kind of dry right now and just kind of spiritually broken. i'm scared to admit that i'm not strong, that i'm weak. i'm scared of change. i know i'm being so vague right now but it's kinda hard to explain and don't worry i'm not emo. i'm actually pretty okay with it here except finding a good church is always hard. just don't forget us in your prayers. i <3 you all.

i miss massachusetts.

i think that basically speaks for itself.

i'm in trouble

because school starts in less than a week and here the trouble part: i haven't picked my classes yet.

school starts

in 9 days. i can't believe school starts in 9 days.

boston project

is this week from the 20th- 25th. be praying for us :)

11 more days

i wish i had more time.

12 more days

i wish i had more time.

so wow.

yeah, it's summer right now and i've been hanging out a ton, but it still doesn't feel like summer, you know? maybe it's because i'm living at my aunts and i can actually see people every single day. and maybe it'd because i'm not trapped in a house thats like a million degrees. and maybe because my parents aren't excatly here. or maybe because the weather is a crappy mess. except for today, cause now the sun is out and it looks beautiful.

but yeah, summer has been pretty exciting. i officially got out last thursday, but i stopped going to school on tuesday and just kept chilling and having fun. which is GOOD, because i got to meet some new and interesting people, and i got to have some quality time with some people who aren't so new but are still interesting :) i've been to boston like 60 times this week and it's been good but i've pretty much walked everywhere and my feet are sore, haha.

and yeah. which makes me realize something. for a wholeee week i've been doing stuff and i haven't spent any time with God (except for family worship...with Liz's family, lol) but yeah. i guess i kinda lost sight when there are so many distractions in the summer. with my opportune location like.. less than 5 miles away from everyone and the fact that i basically can do anything i want with no one telling me otherwise, as long as i have a ride. i feel like, satan is trying to bring me down. not only me, but so many of us, especially in the summer when homework and school is over (except for patrick, faith, and others, lol) and we have so much freedom. and i'm kind of caving in. so yeah. so when you see me in church or... everyday ;) then just give me a little reminder to stay with God and to keep having a relationship with him and to talk and converse with him everyday. alrighty. ima go do my devos now.

have a good summer, now. don't do drugs! :)